Steaming

21st September 2000

Dear Diary,

Wondering why I'm still writing like so soon?

Well, I do have a couple of stuff boiled inside me today. Of course Karmeeni is one of the reasons. You know, she glares at me with that evil look, yeah, as if her eyes are the best features of her. YUCK. They're so big and ugly. I HATE it!! The tempation to scream at her when she glares at me is SO strong but I just don't want to turn out to be a bitch or like totally immatured.

I mean the closest I came to was when she sat down on my place, on my chair and I whined, "WHY must you sit here?" She looked at me innocently and then rolled her eyes at YI and Jamie. Then she was standing up and muttering something and I brushed past her and said, "You think you so big ar!". Gosh I could feel myself bursting with anger.

If it wasn't because I had a fan above my place, I would have sat far far away from that black dog. Sure, for insulting her I may rot and stink like a er..a dead something.S-C-R-E-W! Nobody knows my thoughts in here. So what right? The main reason I totally cannot stand her is because she makes a mountain out of a molehill. Like that day, Amelia told me that this guy who likes Mun Sein told Karmeeni to fuck off and she threatened to report it to the dicipline teacher.

You get my point? She's SO totally depending on grown ups. MUMMY'S BABY. MUMMY'S BAD EXPERIMENT WITH DADDY AND OUT CAME A BLACK BABY. I don't like Karmeeni at all. Basically after when her mother called me to have 'a talk' with me.

Her mother is a real bitch too. hey call me a racist, I don't care.

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You know, don't digest the thought that I have anything against Melanie. I was only pointing out her faults. She can be very nice and her heck of a party animal when she wants to be. But just recently I suppose she thinks VY doesn't like her...or if you put it the way she said it, "Hates her." I mean com'n, if VY hates her right, he'd be asking for some time apart or dump her completely. But I suppose it could be partly VY's fault too.

He should like say hi whenever he sees her, not running off to his friends or something.

Well, why am I even discussing this? I can't help in anyway.

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Today I saw him again. Hmph, he walked past me, knowing I was standing there and he didn't even bother to say hi. So I shouted out, "Lanci already ar?"

No reply.

"Oei!!" I shouted. No reply.

"JT!!" His head turned. He said a quick Hi with a 'surprised' smile. So fake wei.

So much for being friends huh? S-C-R-E-W!!

*moan* How am I ever gonna study for my exams...?! I can't seem to find the time.

Somemore Evelyn invited me to her birthday party this Saturday. Hehe, this is a sad story. First, her boyfriend messaged his whole ICQ list about her birthday party, So Evelyn probably thinks that I might feel bad if I am not invited. Hehehhee..poor her. But I don't know if I should go or not.

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Anyway, today Victor was on the third floor by the games room looking down at me and Melanie, while we were downstairs sorting out newspapers. This girl who was standing next to him, shouted at me, "Hey! What's your name??" And then Victor said something like, "Eiiii.." to her.

Blah!!

Oh, you know, Daniel said that if he ever had a sister, it would've been me. Amazing huh? And all this while I've always felt like he was this big brother to me.

Anyway, goodnight. :)

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Sorry, I don't mean to sound so racist but I just hated that girl alot. And I seemed quite the desperado with that JT case. Sigh.