Of Course Best Friends Must Fight :)

20th September 2000

Dear Diary,

There was an Interact Conference held in a school in Seremban. It was so nice! Definitely going for more! I met this guy there named Allan. I kinda wanted to try him out, but knowing me, infatuations or rather 'thinkings' don't really last long! Anyway, my "Life" poem was chosen as a semi-finalist in the North American Open Poetry Contest and the poem is gonna be published in a book. Wow!!

And I'm in the running to win $10,000!! Or maybe $1000 or something.

BS and Daniel and Joel were pretty impessed. But not many people paid much attention. maybe a constant 'wow' or 'congrats' here and there.

Absence DOES makes the heart grow fonder. NO! I'm not admitting that I STILL like him. Just that, I have come to a point where I have discovered why my heart keeps running back to grab his. I suppose the other guys around me don't carry the same excitement and sparks that he can bring. You know, it's like a game we're playing. It's called "In Suspense!".

True. Or maybe "Promise Breaker". Hmph.

Anyway, I don't think I'm crazy about him anymore. Yea, yea, you may be saying "This I gotta see!" Go on and laugh! But it IS true. I mean com'n! Look at our differences! There I am, wearing sports shoes to school and there he is, a prefect who is in the prefectorial board of directors!

TOTALLY DEE-FER-RENT!

He lives in a mansion whereelse I live in a comfy terrace with my bedroom full of posters and a comfy king size bed bought especially for my parent's first night together! (which is the very same bed that I was created on, I presume.)

Still, JT lies to me. Just that day he told me that he was supposed to be this guest of honour for some Youth thing...which I believed. *rolls eyes* (How could I??)

Then Evon asked if I want to attend their gatherings and that was when I discovered that it was the same youth thingie that JT attended and that he was just a plain new member!

Liar liar pants on fire!

:) Sigh. It was a nice story, the two of us, wasn't it?

I think it has a very sad ending. And ending where the guy breaks another one last promise leaving the poor gal's heart shattered yet she's still standing strong. And has made a vow to herself that as long as she lives she wouldn't face that two timing jerk anytime soon.

And also, looking for new love interests is too boring and not easy. There's not much of a variety.

Anyway, don't you get the feeling that Melanie has changed like 97%(3% is her friendship/love for me. *sigh*) after she went steady with VY? Well I think so! She's extra sarcastic. She used to never care about what other people thought of her. She used to be loads of fun. Less judgemental.

Now she's crazy. yes. Good. But what the heck is normal about writing a piece on cows and frogs for the English newsletter? (oh, my "Attitude Problem" poem was accepted for the newsletter!)

And she acts sooooo cute.
Like she's the cutest thing ever after one of MT's 7 puppies. Especially when VY's around. She's also very hot tempered. And she, I don't know, like at times when it comes to socialising with certain people, she looks down on me. That day when we were receiving certificates for co-curiculum activities during assembly...I couldn't help but noticed that she has this "What's thatdiarygirl doing here?" look. Like I was not capable of getting a cert.

And when I am being myself....she has to criticize.

Oh, I thought ML was going to hand down her post as Assistant Organising Chairperson for the Newspaper Project to me after the Club Elections. She said it so herself....she asked me if I wanted it. But VY was the Organising Chairperson, so naturally Melanie, his GIRLFRIEND, got it instead.

And I was the WHAT, GUESS?!? YEP! Secretary. AGAIN!! #*$&#%

And when I typed out the sponsorship forms, she was 'pissed' at my english. Well, I did not compose the damn letter.

Sigh. I suppose I should be sleeping now. Because tomorrow I have to wake up early and go measure the damn newspapers.

Or NoT lAtEr MelAniE ScolD Then hOW..?

Well, just now I called her regarding this whole thing. Wanting to talk things out you know.

But she sounded busy. So typical. She can't bring herself to sound friendly. I mean hello?!! Your bestest best friend is on the line!?? Sheesh.

p/s: I think ST's eyeing for a mega post on the board of directors. Heck, she only joined THIS year. And she likes follows Melanie like a dog and does ANYTHING Melanie does. And all of a sudden she knows more about the newspaper project than I do.

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Hahaha.. "Melanie" and "ST", not sure when you guys will be dropping by to read this, but damnit, those were the good old days. What kind of friendship would it be without some bitchings thrown in yeah? But the very best.:P Love you guys!

JT JT JT.. drama mama. *rolls eyes*

and I can't believe I was so naive about the poetry thing. Fucking poetry.com. Always bluffing my heart. :( Even when I didn't send any poetry in, somehow I'd still be in the semi-finals... for the next three to four years.