The Innocent Game Of Confessions

19th May 2000

Dear Diary,

JT....oh wow.......super Perfect!!

Anyway, I saw him at school today! I went up to him and talked to him!! And then I watched him from a far..

Anyway, here's a good part: We were teasing each other online...then we were playing this game called "innocent". Where we would ask each other 'innocent' questions.
Then I was like, "Can I ask you an innocent question?"
He was like, "Sure!"
"How did you feel the first time I told you that I like you?"
He said, "Quite surprised..."

Then I asked a few more 'innocent' questions and then he said I can't ask the guilty ones.

Then he asked me, "When you like me, was it really real or just a crush?"
So I went long whindely stating how I remember the first day we talked, how I need to drink a glass of water when I tried to give him a call..*sigh* and the whole Cheng Xiang story...everything that I ever wrote in this book! I really love him...!!

Then he said he was REALLY happy.....and he also said that the second time he walked me home he was looking for me at first.
Anyway, when I was about to leave the chatroom, I said, "I'm glad that I'm finally able to let go of these 'bottled emotions'...." And he said, "Well...I said it before and I'm saying it again....I'm real happy. I feel 'needed'. ..WOW." :)

Isn't he just so romantic? Then I said, "You're happy, I'm happy. Goodnight. :)"

I was like, "MuAckS and HuGs".

AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! Whooooooo hOooooooOOOooooOoooO!!!!!!!!

Anyway, BS said that JT's a traitor. I know he's not but I'll protect myself. Victor isn't ALL that perfect actually. He is erm..he is not JT.

Sigh..anyway, I gotta go. Night.

**

romantic? ROMANTIC?! BULLSHIT. I was so blind. "I feel needed" is a farrrr cry from "I feel the same." or, "I think I may have feelings for you."

Oh and Victor was not perfect because he had thick eyebrows. LOL.